Divorce as immaturity

I am working on a theory that divorce is a manifestation of immaturity.

Divorce pushes a heavy burden down to the children. I’ve heard it said that:

Divorce is when parents cast of their crosses, and hand them to their children.

If the children live in “two homes,” this means that one or both parents thought the other one was too horrible to live with any longer… but not horrible enough to keep the children from going there. It sends a conflicting message:  Continue reading “Divorce as immaturity”

Honor your father and your mother

One of the things that has held me back from expressing my real feelings is the Biblical commandment to “honor your father and your mother.” (Exodus 20:12) Notice that there aren’t any qualifiers to the commandment, such as: “Honor them as long as you approve of their actions.” Lacking qualifiers, I take this to mean that we have to do it regardless of what our parents do.

So the question has lingered in the back of my mind: how do I honor them when they have mishandled things so badly? I’ve written some things here that might seem like I’m dishonoring them. My dad died in 1991, but I worry about what my mom would think if she read these posts. I need to express what it was like for me growing up, and my worry about hurting her feelings has forced me to remain silent for many years. I’ve had to pretend that so many things did not matter to me, in order to preserve my relationship with them. I was angry and sad a lot but didn’t understand why. It’s ironic that in order to honor them, I felt the need to pretend and hide. That tells me that I wasn’t really honoring them all these years. After all, the pretense was a type of lie. And I know that God doesn’t want me to lie.  Continue reading “Honor your father and your mother”

The conservative preference for children of gays

It is super frustrating when prominent conservative leaders and groups hold up the kids of gays to argue against gay marriage as another form of family breakdown, but completely and utterly ignore the kids of divorce. I could provide examples but I’m afraid to. I don’t want to alienate them. Plus I hope that someday they will realize, on their own, the logical gap they have in their arguments. Taken from the point of view of the child, gay marriage is more like divorce/remarriage than it is like marriage. Why can’t conservatives see this?

And just so I’m perfectly clear: I am not pitting the the kids of gays against the kids of divorce–Lord knows, both groups need all the allies they can get. Plus I am friends with a prominent person in the other group. But I must be honest about how I feel and the gap I see.

I won’t provide citations, but it will be easy enough for you to verify what I’m saying.

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Thank you, adoptee community

I just want to say “Thank you,” to the adoptee community. Some of them have done an outstanding job bringing to light the ugly underbelly of adoption. But wait: did you know that adoption has an ugly underbelly? Well, it does. I will probably touch on it from time to time.

The reason I want to thank them is that they have helped me understand my own childhood. I’ve read enough from them that I know they don’t like being compared to the kids of divorce. And in a way I get that. The two are not the same. But I have seen enough conceptual similarity to be helped in my own situation as a child of divorce. Here are several ideas I got from them.  Continue reading “Thank you, adoptee community”

But our son is smiling!

HuffPost Divorce is such a piece of crap. Check out this post from last month. It has a video of a smiling boy interviewing his mom and step-mom. And guess what? It’s all about THEM. Wow, I’m so surprised (not).

The first question and answer is worth dissecting since it reveals a theme we will be exploring quite a bit.

Son: Mom, when I was younger, were you worried about meeting my future step-mom?

Mom: Yes, I was completely freaked out by that situation. Sharing you with your dad was a way of life and it was all I had known so that was fine, but knowing that one day I was going to have to share you with a future hypothetical step-mom… this idea of the other woman really freaked me out. Then the day came that I met Julie, your step-mom, and all of that went away because she is incredible and she made it OK for me. She really made that OK for me. So… you’re very lucky. You have an awesome step-mom.

There is a lot embedded there:  Continue reading “But our son is smiling!”

Divorce apologists: go away

Please, PLEASE spare me the “rebuttal” about how we need divorce so that people can get out of abusive or damaging situations. You know why? It’s because I want to say, “No shit, Sherlock. Wow, you’re brilliant!” (That was sarcasm, by the way.)

Let me ask you a question: who EVER advocated for people to stay in abusive situations? Show me ONE reference. Just one. And it needs to be one that is commonly known. After all, that’s the thrust of your rebuttal–that lots of people like me would remove divorce permanently from the legal landscape.

I hang in some very socially conservative circles, and nobody I know advocates for that.

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Everybody’s daughter, nobody’s daughter

This is the blog of an adult who was raised in multiple divorce-remarriage situations.

This is the blog of an adult who was raised in multiple divorce-remarriage situations.

I’m going to talk about a lot of things that might make some people uncomfortable. If you’re a child of divorce, you might still be in the “divorce fog” and not ready to hear what I’ll say. It took me decades to be willing to admit how f’ed up my childhood was. I didn’t want to admit that I had no family, that I wasn’t a full family member in either of my parents’ homes, that I had to lie on a daily basis.

If you’re a parent who has been divorced and remarried, and made your kid live a double life so that you could be happy, you may not like what I’m going to say.

If you’ve been through those experiences and are ready to move forward with new concepts and new language, I hope you join me. I’ll be talking about some aspects of living as a child of divorce that cry out for exploration. Aspects such as having a fractured ontology and living in a perpetually liminal state. I’ll critique the BS about how great divorce is for kids, and anything else that smacks of approval for the divorce culture. Watch and see–it is going to be like shooting fish in a barrel!